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Name: Anthony
Location: Vallejo, California, United States
Birthday: 3/27/1991
Gender: Male
Interests: I like to play on my ps2, go on the internet, watch scary movies, hang out at the mall and watch vh1-----2004'
I like to go on AIM all day and talk to intresting people, practice my musicianship, talk on the phone with my ex, play MMO's, procrastinate on my hw, get involved in useless drama and watch satruday night animes----2006'
ahhh 2004...when life was simple...
Occupation: Government
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  solid67snake
AIM:  corupted agent
Member Since:
7/30/2004
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dont know what compelled me to get back on this thing, but im on it.
its almost been a year since ive been on this thing, and as i read all my past blogs, i reminiced on all the times ive wrote them, the feelings i had, the way i acted, and i can say that ive grown ever since the first blog, ALOT.
Xanga should be renamed a time portal, because as i read my past blogs, i've felt like ive been going back in time by each blog, as if i was sitting there writing them. Some made me laugh, yet some almost made me tear up.
Im not exactly in the best mood right now, and only myself knows why. Its my weak will that drives me to make stupid mistakes like the one i did today. Its irritatating me and i really need to do something about it. I've thought of something and im guaranteed it will work, but the question is when will i do it?
As the end of my sophmore year comes to a close, i feel like I didnt accomplish anything. I let myself down numerous amounts of times, and when the challenges came, i didnt accept them... Its a terrible feeling that i had at the end of my freshman year, and even though i said to not have these kind of regrets back then, it came back to haunt me. Im tired of it.
It feels like a new chapter in my life is about to begin, this time the chapter wont be filled with faliures.
so theres this girl right? umm yea! 
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| will beauty stay if i ....
this is bs man, my aunt doesnt want to pay for the freakin internet cuz she says my mom doesnt pay bills around the house, whatever, and because of that, im having a withdrawl from the internet right now. This withdrawl is really driving me insane right now, mostly because the internet is the only way i can keep in contact with some friends. i have no phone and noones phone number so im completely isolated.
oh yea whoever says there bored with full internet access, should get slapped..100 times
ima tell my mom to take me to rickey's house after my time limit is done on this shit library computer, maybe hell be there and ill wont be bored shit out of my mind like the past few days ... staying up till 5 watching tv wasnt part of my summer plan....ill just hope something happens...*sigh*
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| And I can feel my hearbeat racing...
love = unknown choice
i love this girl
even though its been seven months, shes in my mind every breaking moment
no matter how many times i say " i hate you " i can never mean it
you have every right reason to hate me, but yet, you dont
when i thought i was high up in the clouds, you brung me the hell back to earth
you took me in, and made me into something i had never been
i have your deepest secret...and i guard it with my very exsistence, even after my death
you have given me the happiest memories of my entire life, and the most depressing...
you may think im a damn fool for doing this, but as your brother said " a person in love is a fool, and a fool is always the happiest"
ive told you before....but im going to tell you the hell again
i love you
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| AND YOUR NOSE IS BLEEDING.....
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the term "emo" started to be used more often to describe what was perceived by those outside the scene as the overwrought melodrama of the music. Popular comments such as "don't be so emo" and "cheer up, emo kid" drove home the belief among deriders that fans of emo music took themselves too seriously and were simply looking for drama where it didn't exist.
that's all...
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